Slowly I Turn, Step by Step, Inch by Inch

There are twelve steps and twelve traditions in the OA handbook. I’ve been stymied by the first three. Admit you have a compulsive eating problem Okay, admit you have a problem. I wouldn’t allow myself to believe it even when I admited aloud that I have a problem, even though we are required to introduce…

The Winds Blow Against Me

The breath of negativity seems to be pushing against my resolve not to melt into a gibbering puddle of tears.  Today, I've been told that my sister is ashamed of me, that I'm a hoarder who needs help and that since I didn't make any money this year so I've lost my mothers exemption because I apparently…

The Work Ahead

Okay, I'm reading Bradshaw and I'm getting into it and he starts talking about having to *have* to do the work in order to make it work.  I'm scared.  Not because I'm innately lazy, but because I'm afraid of what the work might dig up.  On paper, yea, I'm all for doing the work, making…