Almost a Year

I had a dream this morning, half awake and half asleep kind of dream.  I heard my mother call me from her room.  Not her normal morning call but more of a genial kind of invite.  My mom was in her room and my sister S. was asleep in her bed while C was asleep…

New Year, New Dynamic

Mom died. It's been about seven weeks since her passing.  Time seems to go buy at different speeds at the same time.  I've hit new levels of stooopid I never knew I could.  I'm still not eating right, sleeping well or taking care of myself as I should.  The only thing I've been capable of…

Accentuate the Poisitive

There is the quote by Emerson or someone famous like that: "Your attitude determines your altitude," My attitude, then, has me tunneling through life.  I know I'm tired, I know I'm a little burnt around the edges, but I don't need to be so negative/nasty about they way I describe taking care of Mom.  For…