Okay, so I quoted Harry Potter for my title. Sue me. Today was a day where I felt the emotions raising in me, pricking at my eyes and making me tear up. I don’t know what caused it. It didn’t help that my nephew J kept talking about killing Sammy, my parrot. He can be very bombastic with his desire to kill her. I can understand not liking someones pet, but to be as specific as to how he would, and how much he would enjoy doing it hurt. He know’s I’m overly attached to Sammy, which I think only adds fuel to his aggressive style of humor.
I missed church, I wanted to go but the idea that everyone knows what’s going on in my house, my head and my spirit I don’t want the looks. So, I was already wound up when he got here. At least I was wearing my dress so he thought I went to church and he couldn’t razz me about it.
The thing is, I was okay when he was there. I think it started when Mom got up and demanded her breakfast and “Where’s my ice tea.” I really have an issue with Mom treating me like a waitress. She wanted me to unpack her new oxygen system and I told her to do it herself. When she got up and started it I helped her. It was a confrontation where she wanted me to “want” to help. Her tone was “You will because you work for me” and I took the bait, like a well heeled poodle. I need to stop that.
I let her in on that I was having issues and that I took something for it when she started to get eye problems and how she’s upset that she feels like she’s loosing her eyesight….again. And again, I let her get to me. And it won’t be the last time I’m sure….dumb bunny.
A teaspoon is a really small place to live.