Dreams are like movies directed by the soul. Your mind works out all the tangles and knots your daily life creates and then smooth’s things over so we don’t all go bat-crap-crazy. Of which I am truly grateful. There are certain things, symbols in dreams that are consistent with all the dream weavers out there….
There’s the anxiety dream where you can’t run when you’re being chased.
There’s the project dream where you dream you have a baby, a puppy, or something new born that is in your charge and you need to take care of it.
The wanting to speak dream where you try to say something but your mouth is full of gum or food and no matter how hard you work to pull the stuff out of your mouth you can never quite get it all out, ofrom between your teeth.
The happy dream is where you fly.
My dreams a few nights ago had puppies and flying. The puppy was the sample of a business idea that someone came up with in my dream…..Send A Friend A Puppy….Even I had a double take in my dream and asked them to repeat it. It works like this, you have a friend you want to cheer up so instead of flowers you send them a fluffy, clean 6 to 10 week old puppy. In this case it was a golden retriever puppy. They come in a box with food and puppy-poopoo-pads and gloves. You have to admit no matter how sick, sad or frustrated you are, an afternoon with a puppy will take a lot of the gloom and doom and shine up your attitude in no time. My mind has been feverishly trying to remake the main character in my completed novel less of a push-over and more of an woman that is 75% intelligent and 15% stubborn and 10% without a clue…..like most women. That’s the new puppy.
Later in that dream I was told that I could fly again. I didn’t believe them, but they assured me I could. So I took to the sky and doing my rudimentary swimming motions I propelled myself into the air. Though I was flying, and I was happy while I was aloft, I noticed that the scarf/sleeve had either sand or rice trying to pull me back towards the ground. I struggled against gravity and as long as I focused on staying in the air I did. I love flying in my dreams….they truly are my favorite dreams. I see this as a promise of present happiness despite of the things that seem to be trying to tie me to the ground. That’s to my surrender I no long dread or hate or even feel put upon taking care of my Mom. When she gets angry with me I react internally first and then sort of laugh at the whole thing….she’s like a toothless Chihuahua. It does kind of make me laugh and I try very hard not to do it in front of her. So, mom is one of the bags that are trying to hold me down, the other, I believe is my work with OA. I ran into a woman while getting food for my family and se said some of the OA speak and I asked her. I told her my problem with getting sponsor and she said she would be more than willing to talk with me. She said most people that can’t get the fourth step done is because they haven’t truly done the third step: Surrendering to your higher power. I’m trying to learn to surrender on the celestial level now, trying to surrender myself, my control and my life to God the Father and Jesus Christ. It’s harder than I thought it would be. But then anything worth doing is never really easy. It only seems easy when you see it through the rearview mirror.
I’ve also been having anger dreams where I just rant and rave at my sibling about stuff they don’t understand. And there have been a few anxiety dreams as well about running out of time, which is an anxiety that chases me in the waking hours as well, but I don’t remember the specifics of the dreams only the impetus of them….the hospice nurse made the comment that Mom was deteriorating and it triggered the anxiety and a feeling a fear and dread at the idea of my mother passing. (That’s a whole other post). The events in the dream disappear almost with my eyes focusing on the alarm clock, but the anger and anxiety tend to fuss with my day for a while.
Okay, why the post about dreams? Because it is confirming what I’m starting to realize myself. I’m happy, really happy. And I know I’m burdened some with my responsibilities and my health but I’m still happy. If surrender brings this much happiness I would hope surrendering to the other conflicts in my life should and would be easier.
Pleasant and prophetic dreams to all!