Uncomfortably Numb

Pink Floyd's lyrics are strangely apropos: When I was a child I had a feverMy hands felt just like two balloonsNow I've got that feeling once againI can't explain you would not understandThis is not how I amI have become comfortably numb It's funny how the brain works. I could convincingly lie to myself and…

Suck It Up, Buttercup!

I feel like I'm devolving into a puddle of goo.  I'm shaking, implosion seems eminent and sleep doesn't help.  But then I'm not supposed to be sleeping....I'm supposed to be shopping, cleaning, organizing, learning, writing the ending of my finished novel (House of Dragons) and working on a general editing pass at my other one (Hearts…

Crazy + Christmas = Anxiety

I started my weekend before Christmas with a disturbing night of my heart trying to pound its way out of my chest, bringing with it images of me going to the ER, and trying to convince them I didn't want to die, I wanted them to find out what was wrong but things just kept going…