I did it. I am in class this very moment, on lunch of course. The plasticity of the grey matter hasn’t snapped like an old rubber band with the effort, so I guess we can call it a success. I only have one more week and then two weeks off to study and then the certification exam, then externship and then getting a job. So I have a path that is laid out before me, and I’m confident I can stay on this path…..today anyway.

So as the last post mentioned I have been having a spate of bad ju-ju. It didn’t stop with denial of unemployment or getting my school date messed up….

  • My car worked early, early morning on Monday my first day of school but was totally dead when it was time to go to school. Result: had to take the bus AND the train and I was late to school. Positively though, I’m walking more than I have in months and I’m feeling better for it.
  • My grasp on acronyms is pathetic because there are soooooo many floating in my head from tech, from CNA, and just by making them up as I go along in life.
  • I’m not stupid, I’m not difficult to work with and I will conquer it. It just feels like it’s going to take forever.

I’m giving myself a pass on disposing of Moms stuff and finding a job that will pay extra money to save, to pay bills and to move is my next hurdle. I remember hurdles in high school. The aren’t something you can do without engaging your brain and your feet. Doing both takes the pressure of focusing on the fear, I’m not that afraid…at least not right now.

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